Some expect this to simply be there...
Maybe because they are elders to others
Others feel it is earned from those whom surround them in their life
And then there are those people out there
That once its earned,
Once you have breached that point
You have their ..
It can never be extinct..
But then there may come a time when you..
Have given them a reason to no longer trust you.
Not because you are untrustworthy
Not because you are irresponsible
But because you have poor decision making skills.
And this you learn as time goes on
Something you have to go through in order to make good choices...
I do my best to make those who come in contact with myself .. happy.
I do my best to not hurt those whom I love and care for unintentionally
Yet the choices I make to do this, comes back and does excatly what I go out of my way for.
And that is hurting them.
I know that within time I will gain back the trust I have lost with those certain people I have betrayed.
I know that given the correct amount of time things will be okay.
But knowing I have hurt him,
On a level I never that was possbile,
For me to reach
When it came to breaking his heart.
If I have done this simply by misjudging a decision
Something that could have been so easily avoided
Then what else can I do..
That I do not relize I can?
I am... was only trying to help a sticky sistuation..
Rather than making it more messy
But again I did excatly that!
If I am capable of what I never thought I was to begin with..
Then what else is the furture going to suprise me with?