Leaving the ones you love is never easy to deal with and no matter how I try I canít seem to get over the amazing sadness I feel inside
How do I tell my children the day I leave that this may be the last time they see daddy
Children of this young age canít understand what it is meant to answer the call of duty
I only hope that they will love me for what I have done and remain proud of me
Even thought I leave this place I call home for another that is not my home, I will never forget the laughter and joy I felt when they came into my life and how much I enjoy having them around to play with. The only thing I want is have them remember me no matter what happens and to know that I did what I needed to do. Please forgive me for all the bad choices I have made in my life. I donít regret my family in any way or the choices that I have made to better their lifeís. I only hope that when they grow up they will understand why I do what I do. Some would call me a hero and others would call me other things I dare not mention. I truly donít care what they think as long as my wife and kids love me and understand that I did it for them. Some one once told me that no kid should be without a father for any given time. I agree with that person to a certain degree. My brothers and sisters do what we do because some one has to do it, but our families pay for it every day of their lives. They do it with pride and honor, my backbone, my soul. Please Donít Hate Me, For I Do What I Must.