Today was supposed to be my miracle.
The day when all that was wrong,
Finally became right.
It was supposed to be the day,
I wrapped my arms around you,
For the rest of my life.
It was the day you'd say,
That you'd never leave again.
It was supposed to be worth it today.
All that time, and the pain, and the effort,
Of making it last, would finally come to an end.
I know it's not about ME.
I just always thought it would be about US.
As happy as I am for you,
I didn't even want to open my eyes this morning,
For I knew the hurt today would cause my heart.
All that I thought we were,
And all that I thought we would be,
Is truly lost in today.
You start your life,
And in a way I'm starting mine.
We have TRULY gone our separate ways.
I can see myself at the airport,
Waiting with that smile,
And the feeling of excitement,
Of knowing your home to stay.
But those are just...thoughts.
Only for a time,
Could they have ever been my reality.
I have cried no tears today.
But there is a sick feeling,
In that empty spot in my gut,
That tells me - I'm losing.
That I'm losing - everything.
And the only choice I have,
Is to be okay with that.
I just shake my head when I think,
That I waited four years, for today,
To sit here alone and wonder,
How it all came down to this.
The BEST and the WORST part,
I wouldn't change a thing,
And I'd do it ALL over again.