Who Knows... -------------------------------------------
I long to be independent
To feel as if I am not trapped
Within a prison
That I built meant for another
Yet it has confined me in ways that weren't meant to be
I long to have that certain someone read my mind
In order for him to know my love for him is true and pure
In order for him to know this love I carry is everlasting and never ending
For soon we will be married
One day have children of my own
You know I wonder...
Will I be here in a month?
Will I have decided this is the wrong path for me?
Will I ever break from this prison that I have been confined to since a young girl?
Will you put up with me and these endless mistakes that I just so happen to make
Will I ever be truly wanted?
Do you understand where I am coming from?
Do you understand I am hurting?
I am longing for freedom
Freedom I have yet experienced
See here I am longing for independency
Yet I am afraid...not knowing
Not knowing what to expect
Not knowing... how to deal with these things..
Wanting to give up...
Yet needing to prove that I will not
Prove that I am strong.
I applaud you for making yourself vulnerable in this piece. The feelings that you have expressed are a window to your very soul. You are transparent in a positive way, people can easily see into your heart. There are a few things you could do better at, and I say this because I believe that you are capable of so much more. Try to describe some of these feelings in a less obvious way. Just read through it and study every line and see what you think you can add to it, and if you see in your own heart that it is complete then that's fine as well. Follow your heart is the best advise I can give you.