Just Wanted To Let You Know by jackz

See, I still think of you.
You still cross my mind
It’s actually at the most random times possible
But nevertheless you still have left an impression upon me

And in no way am I trying to act as if it is a good impression
You will always leave your mark with me

And every time it’s something different
It’s something new
Something else to handle
To over come.

But I just wanted to let you know
You still cross my mind from time to time
And I do not hate you
For you are my Father.

But nor do I like you.

The day you "Yet Again Left Me Brokenhearted..."
The day I told you I'd talk to you later
As tears were running after one another down my cheeks...
I hung up the phone...

And for once Father.
For once you left me hurt...broken... and brused
But this time I was hurting and I had someone to hold me

Someone to wipe those tears off my cheeks unlike yourself.
Whom had caused them.

And you want to know something else?
I let him hold me...
At first I fought back...
Pushing
Shoving
Yelling
But in the end...

We were in a corner curled up together
Rocking back and forth...back and forth...

And forever I will remeber this
Not because you finally became that father figured I know you can be
Not because you we the one to hold me

But simply because...
I know I can no longer trust you..
And for that matter have a father I have been so longing to have...

You have hurt me
You have disappointed me
But most of all you have killed my soul... and broken the dreams of having you has my father...