So here i am.
All alone in my cold room again.
With no one other than my thoughts
and memories.
I try and sleep to pass the time
the thoughts
the you.
But I wake up from this perfect world
knowing that it can't ever happen.
And I hate myself for even
remotly missing you.
And tears fall from name that
I tell myself I am for missing you.
And with each warm acidic tear
they leave a streak of words.
Weak
Dependant
Stupid
And I hate myself even more
for not being okay.
After all this time,
I'm still not ok.
It's been 2 years
of cutting
and void filling.
And after I try and find someone else
I still find myself
Back at ground zero.
This lonely hole that
in it's familarity is comforting.
Weak
Dependant
Stupid
Burning their already made paths
They sting.
And I hate myself.
I'm sorry that you feel that way...no one should ever make you feel like that! But on a brighter note, i liked the ppem. You had some gopd imagery in there and a lot of emotion! Good job!
dude.. shame on you for even feeling this way.. its not weak to want someone, or even to need someone. and its not stupid for you to miss the only person that ever showed a lot of interest in being SUPREMELY close to you. but you have got to move past it because bottom line he was NOT a good person for you.. and maybe remy is, maybe not but its worth it to take a chance.. and there are LOTS of people out there..you dont have to move backward.
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