A Strange Thing.......... -------------------------------------------
The strangest thing happened to me today. I woke up with sadness inside me. At first I wasn't sure why. Then a thought of him (a past lover) went through my mind. I knew then why I was so sad I was leaving him behind again. Just like all the other times before. I sat in my chair in the bedroom and looked out the window and recollected my times with him. I realized something about us. We started out as friends and then when I was broken badly for the first time it was him that healed me. We talked for hours that day. What was a friendship grew in to something more. We became lovers. He healed me, but once I was healed and the hurt was gone so was I. I went running back to the one that broke me. We went on for years aware that what we done was inevitable it was meant to be. No longer was best friends or anything at that. That is until I was broken again. I wasn't looking for him, he found me again in my thoughts like he is so good at doing. I ran to him not looking for his love just his friendship that we lost but it wasn't there just our love. He healed me once again. I was no longer broke. I was happy again. In love once more with him. No I dont think I was ever really out of love with him. I just wasn't broken enough to need him. So I was healed again and went running back again to the one who broke me. Now I woke this morning with a sadness. A sadness of knowing I was not broke anymore. Knowing that I didn't need him any more. That was not the case though I needed him as my friend.I cried this morning when I woke up. Not knowing what would later happen in my day.
No I was not broken again. still happy . I went on about my day and not another thought of him went by. Even though I did find him. He was there at the same park as I was. I walked up to him with a fear pounding in my
heart. This was from wanting to need him again. We stood with this uneasiness talking to each other like we hadn't seen each other for awhile, that was not the case it was just a few month ago that he healed me. We said our greetings and that is when it hit me again. When he hugged me bye I cried because I knew I was leaving him again. This time though it was different he didn't heal me I was happy and I knew then it was forever. We would always be friends but he would never heal me again. I was moving on. I woke up this morning not knowing any of this was going to happen like it did. Strange things happen to you in strange ways.