I agree with David, your thoughts are more collected, however that does not nesecarily mean that you are more focused and it is getting to you less and you are starting to move past it.
It means you have thought you have cried you have thought again and reached a stat of THIS IS THIS!
But tomorrow next week a month from now it could change,
I know because I do the same thing.
When I write I don't read it at all except maybe the line I just finished until it's ended.
Then I go back and re read checking for the flow. I usually have to change a word here or there but generally not to many changes.
When it flows from the heart pure as this does here it comes out without many errors.,
Hi baby! I just got in from my poker game. You are asleep on the couch and you look SO beautiful! I missed you so much tonight. I wish you would have come with me. There were other guys girlfriends there, and some of them even played. You would not have been the worst player at the table at all. Next week, I hope you reconsider. You would have had fun, but I know you were tired, so I completely understand! I'm sorry today was such a bad day for both of us. We DO need a break, for sure. I will try and make sure that happens soon! Something we can both enjoy, I promise. I don't care what other members get mad. It's my company. What can they do? I am the Chief Executive Member, I have the final call on everything, and there's nothing that anyone can do to me! (except yell at me or bug me...lol) But damn, it's somebody else's turn to try running this thing for a week or two! Maybe then they'll appreciate how hard I work, and how difficult my job is. Also they'll realize how many hours YOU put in and how tough YOUR job is when THEY have to cover the shifts, or find somebody capable to cover your shifts!
Anyhow, I chose to write this note to you as a comment on THIS particular poem because, of all of your most recent new ones, I think I like this one the best! But, for some reason, nobody has commented thus far... So I get to be the first! (again) lol. I love the structure of this one. It's not as free form as your other stuff, and that lends to the fact that your thoughts on this matter are more collected and organized. I like that because to me, it means that you have finally and truely come to grips with all of this, and now you are handling each part of the process with patience and conviction at the same time. You have reasonable expectations. And, you are very careful to handle each responsability with care. And you spend time in preparation for each thing you must do. You no longer fly off the handle and go into it flustered and unorganized. I am so proud of you baby! You are an amazing person, and I adore you! I just can not wait for all of this to be over so we can begin planning the wedding! I still can't wait to marry you, and I love you soooo much baby. You are my world!