Lying in bed…
Thinking of you and all the good you brought into my life. Lying in bed…
Thinking of you and what I could do without you Lying in bed…
With tears in my eyes at the thought of not having you around…
And now here I am writing this due to you… and the PAIN you have caused me.
The only reason you had me within your control
Was because you put on an act that you cared
You knew my weakness and that was, wanting a father figure…
You took this weakness and tormented me with it.
Dangling it within arms reach…
When although you cared it was only about my body and what you’d get from it!
Your act was encouraged by the nude pictures you took of me
This performance you put forth to deceive me was inspired by all the things you made me do
All the things you made me let you do to me… as I cried out
As I hollered for you to STOP
Begging you with every breath within my body,
But soon I learned that did no good.
My screams and tears had no effect on you
Simply my reaction to your cold hands touching me in areas you were not allowed
That and only that reaction you looked forward to and had you wanting more.
Ah Ca rumba,
You know, men are creeps, never let them know of your weaknesses or your fears because it is really just ammunition to get what they want. I'm telling you this from a mans point of view, it's funny that I came across a writing like this because I recently wrote a poem called "Serial" about having the tables tuned on me by a very crafty lady, she had me convinced that I needed her to continue, but what it really comes down to is you don't need anyone to make you feel whole, that power only lies within yourself, I found if you turn to other people to fill gaps within yourself it only ends up in pain and disappointment.
Also he sound like an [censored], I hope you realize that you are better off not sharing your life with a person who would do something like that to you,
Great write, Great emotion,
As you stated it is a rant, and for a rant it's not bad at all. But still you could make it better. First, I think it would actually add by removing capital letters. They are acting like a distraction. Some lines broken would help also, like
"When although you cared it was only about my body
and what you’d get from it"
"Simply my reaction to your cold hands touching me
in areas you were not allowed
That and only that reaction you looked forward to
and had you wanting more."
The piece is in a way self-explanatory, yet opened to different interpretations, which is good.