It seems as though that you are bound by something don't let anything hold you back from finding out what it is you want. Sometimes it take a while to find what you are looking for because some people put on facades and try to trick you into believing that they are the one for you.
A vacation sounds good. Hmmm, how about climbing a mountain, going white water rafting, or getting together a bunch of friends for a camping trip. Of course, you could always try something tamer like painting, sculpture, or shopping. LOL---this one was just plain fun to read. I get bored sometimes, too. :-) Sharon