I have often been told that I am a genius.
Many who say it do not even know that it is an accurate statement.
I actually am considered a genius.
Trust me, that is not a good thing.
I truly wish it was not so...
I am often introduced to new people with some phrase like;
"This is the smartest dude I know!"
I suppose that I should take this as a compliment. After all, that is usually how it is intended. But, I do not feel complimented at all...
You see, the people who are making these introductions, I rarely hear from unless I can serve some purpose to them. My actual "friends" are few and far between.
It is difficult to even begin any sort of new acquaintance without that precedent being set by the person introducing us. My "friend" must relay all that I am capable of and all of my "uses" to this new person, like I am some kind of well kept secret. Again, I know it is meant as a compliment... But please read on...
My knowledge is my curse.
My curiosity throttled me quickly to this status.
My desire to know how everything works makes me a shortcut for all of those who do not wish to bother, or learn anything.
They just want someone else to solve all of their problems for free, with no effort on their part.
Although my level of knowledge is often above the standard for "experts" in a given field, it is perfectly acceptable to shell out appropriate compensation for the "expert's" services. But rarely, if ever, is any offer made to me to compensate me for my time or service. It is just expected that I will work without a complaint, for the sake of my own satisfaction and nothing else.
And yet, they all wonder why I am no longer as generous with my skills as I once was. Many of them have the audacity to get angry with me, or look surprised... like I owe this to them. They even say things like "...if there was something I knew how to do, and you didn't, I'd do it for you!". But when I DO ask for help with something... nobody shows.
Look everybody, I'm not arrogant at all, although I am certain that my words thus far have inspired you to believe otherwise. But the reason that I learned how to do so much was because I DO love helping people, and I'm tired of seeing people get ripped off by so-called "experts and professionals" who prey on your lack of understanding and experience in a particular field, and exploit it. The bottom line is, this world is a dishonest and corrupt place. I personally hate that feeling when you know you just got ripped off, but you don't know enough about it to prove anything. Like I said, I am not arrogant or condescending at all. This letter is a statement to how fed up with everyone assuming that I have nothing but time to help them, and that just because I know how to do something, that fact obligates me to do it, just because it will save them money if I do. You know, sometimes you have to pay like everybody else! I’m just so sick of people making me feel guilty about not having the time to keep their lives conveniently running smoothly. I'm tired of everyone running to me with everything that breaks, or everything that they want to get done, but do not know how to do themselves. Just because they don't want to have to pay for it, they expect me to take care of it for them, just because I am capable. On top of that, they have no desire whatsoever to make it convenient for me. It is expected to be done immediately, and if I must re-schedule, I am often told how inconvenient this is for THEM! , and how they had to rearrange THEIR schedule to get me access to their "broken whatever" or to meet up with me so I can work on whatever issue they have. How dare I inconvenience them by rescheduling my FREE services, or by not immediately addressing their problem? I guess if I don't do a better job, they will give the job to someone else. I'd hate to lose a customer to someone else! I mean... they ARE doing me a favor by LETTING me do the job, instead of paying someone who is "trained" or "certified" to handle their issue.
So, if you're all going to continue to come to me with ALL of your problems, or projects that you need completed, PLEASE, don't expect me to be thrilled about it. I'm tired. You all wore me out, and I have nothing to show for it. You all enjoy the rewards of my labor, meanwhile, the things I NEED to get done for myself, you expect me to push to the back burner. Of course, your problem is ALWAYS more important than mine. If you really want to motivate me to help you, find out how much an expert or professional might charge you, then offer me a fair payment that saves you money, but no longer insults me with your "serve me for free" attitude. I'm done being your personal "no charge 'I've got a friend' hook up" expert on everything! I have saved all of you THOUSANDS and THOUSANDS of dollars, and cost myself THOUSANDS and THOUSANDS of dollars... often having to pay someone else to complete my own projects, because all of my time is tied up helping everybody else. It needs to end now.
You know, really, I'm rather curious to see who will even bother to keep in touch now, now that I'm no longer "useful" to you. I'm curious how many will realize how often you have taken advantage of me, because you knew I would not ASK for money. You always assumed that I didn't care. Well I DID. I just wanted you to value all of the services I have performed, knowing that the experts and professionals severely inflate the time it takes to complete a project, and charge ridiculous hourly wages. You could still have saved TONS of money, without insulting me by not paying me anything! And now I would not be bitter. I would have felt that it was worth doing all of it, and I would continue to help out when I was asked.
Instead, I wind up feeling like an empty spool, which is useful when it holds something of value or purpose, but by itself, has no value whatsoever. Something that is used once and very rarely recycled to be used for any other purpose than storing and distributing it's original cargo. Much like how I am often introduced to "friends of friends" who attempt to create this close friendship with me, and offer me all of the services and benefits that they can help me with, often in trade for service of mine. And, oh, how wonderful I am while I am performing some service to these new "friends" which my friend has assured me will return the favor in some way, or can be trusted for payment; "You have my word!! I've known (him/her) my whole life!!" What a laugh. And WOW how many hookups they have that will be useful to me. They've got people all over the place that can offer me something WONDERFUL! Yet, I never receive anything or any help or offers for some kind of deal on anything. How quickly I am discarded until I am once again needed. And, how busy you get, or how broke you are when it comes time to return the favor or repay the debt.
I believe that you all forget how many of you that I help. I think that when you ask for my help, you do not realize that you are NOT the only one asking me to spare some time for them. Literally, I could spend twenty-four hours a day just completing the tasks that everyone expects me to do for them, which is why I MUST cut you all of. Please do not take it personally. I am not angry with any one of you in particular, and none are better or worse than the other. Our friendships, if they were true in the first place, will not change. However, if you only kept my number to "re-friend" me and all of a sudden you've been "TRYING AND TRYING TO GET IN TOUCH WITH ME THE WHOLE TIME!" when you have something coming up that I can help with, lose my number. I am not interested in the kind of friendship you expect. I expect my friends to actually care about me, even when they don't need anything to be done. If the only time you think of me is when you are looking at a task and think "I wonder if Dave can do this?", again, just lose my number like you do between uses for me. Only this time, don't find it...
I will gladly make my skills or knowledge available to anyone who needs it, however, it will no longer be free. I will no longer do any "favors", other than saving you a LOT of money, and continuing to be honest about time, requirements, and true cost to complete something for you. I will NEVER inflate costs or 'take my time' to rack up hours if we agree on an hourly rate. I will always disclose the costs of anything I require in order to help you, and I will always be MUCH, MUCH cheaper than ANY other option you may have, all while providing the highest level of expertise and quality, which you all know. I am a perfectionist.
So yeah, I guess I'm done venting. None of the people who need to hear this will ever visit this site. So basically, this is just for me...
My manifesto of what I want to say to people, but probably never will. It's much easier to just ignore them, they'll get the hint right? It just amazes me, that NOBODY... EVER... EVER... offers to pay me for what I do, no matter how much I have saved them, or how difficult or time consuming it may be. Sure, they'll say "thank you, thank you" a million times. But that's not putting any value on my time or knowledge, or the effort that it took to learn how to do all the crap that I do for people. I don't just "know" all of this crap by miracle. I worked very hard to further my education on my own... without any teachers or examples. I read books, and learned by doing it, because I am not afraid to try, even if I can do more damage by trying you can't put a price on the knowledge required to do almost anything YOURSELF. If you would all just get a little courage and not be so damn lazy, you could easily learn how to do at least the things that YOU need done. Nothing that I have come across is beyond the scope of learning for a person of average intelligence. I promise! You CAN do this stuff yourself! Imagine what it would be like to be able to save all of that money that you pay professionals and experts to build, repair, or otherwise complete some important tasks that you are conditioned to believe can only be handled by a trained professional.
Anyhow, again I'm straying from my point. Actually, I'm not even sure what my point is...
I guess it's just that you have abused my desire to help people wherever and whenever I am able, especially if it gives me an opportunity to learn something new. I am sorry to say that although I am very grateful that you all entrust the most important tasks and valuable items for me to fix, and that you think highly enough of me to want me to handle it, over any "experts or professionals", I wonder if you will still praise me so highly when I am no longer able to work for free. I truly believe that I have done more favors than should ever have been expected of me. I have so many things of my own that I need to focus on, I can no longer survive without devoting all of my time to completing my own tasks. I simply can not afford to help anyone else anymore. At least not for free. I will gladly help if you are willing to compensate me fairly for my time. Otherwise, best of luck. I hope you can find someone honest and fair.