Happy I would be?
God has expressed himself in such a manner, it is difficult to ignore.
I know… I feel we all have a purpose in this world; God has placed us here on this earth for a reason.
We are all in certain people’s lives for a reason.
God had spoken to me…
He longs to see me smile,
To see me happy with this life I have been given.
And, in order to have these things accomplished, my life has changed drastically!
I’ve had to make hard choices,
choices in which were life altering.
And I have done just this
although throughout this process of making these life altering choices,
the question still lingers within my mind…
Would there be some kind of happiness in the life I would have still lead, by not having made those choices?
Would the structure of my life be better,
had I not chosen to make these changes?
Who I am now goes back to my childhood.
Our childhood makes us the adults we are.
And being an adult who had an sexual abusive childhood, I sometimes wonder…
Would the person I could have been, by not being an abused child
Would that person be more liked?
Easier to love?
Easier to trust?
Ultimately, would I be happy?