What have I become?
A monster, a beast
Something so foul and should never be released
Out of control, all out of hope
To ever return to standards acceptable
What have I done?
Nothing good
Just evil deeds and the devils work
No longer feeling what once was so right
Falling apart, becoming allergic to light
Becoming a stranger to you and even a stranger to me
I've let the worst get the best of me
I've taken the pain and bottled it in
Set it aside and let it hide
Now unleashed at full force at everyone
Blind, no longer recognizing the ones I love
I have forgotten about my future
And I live in the past
Can't get over it, how long will this last
Can't get through to me, Give it up now
I've let you down
Forgotten about all that was supposed to be
What was meant to be, but no longer possible
I loved you, love you so lost in these words
Lost, confused, I don't know anymore
Don't know what to do, don't know what to say
I've let you down and its more than I can take
But not enough to make me change
What is wrong with me
These thoughts in my head, much more than a headache
Help me, please help me. No get away
Infectious disease and you will not be saved
You will not be spared, no matter my hearts desire
Start with the source and set me on fire
I love you more than a heart ever could
But my brain wont let my heart , function as it should
It merely allows me to embrace this hell and where the devils crown
So I'm torn apart and I apologize
Because I've let us down
I've let you down |