CHRISTINA REMEMBERS EVERYTHING ENDING PERMANENTLY YESTERDAY
i dont remember saying bye to you. i only remember what they tell me. i remember crying. i remember trying to get over you...
i remember gagging as he kissed me, flinching when he touched me, cringing as he climbs over me, and tensing right before he enters me.
i remember him telling me how tight i was and i said i know. i remember him moving so fast. i remember how much it hurt but i wouldnt make him stop.
i remember closing my eyes and seeing your face. i remember trying to get over you.
i remember him crying out right before he falls and moving out of the way so he wont land on me. i remember dressing and wanting to leave.
i remember him telling me he loves me...
i remember repeating the words as the first lie i tell him. i remember hating him, myself, you. wanting you there. but your not.
i remember trying to get over you.
"i love you"
"you give me hope"
"i hate you"