Long ago you gave me a poem to read
Exposing yourself to my judgment
By telling me of those sad thoughts
Below the surface of superficiality
The title was “I’m Dying Inside.”
Cannot remember the words I read
Only the last line comes to my mind
“Has anyone noticed, I’m dying inside?”
Years have passed since that moment
After which we built a close friendship
Then destroyed it at end of that same year
Spending the following years trying to heal
Numbing the sensitivity to cope with the pain
Programming myself to cast off the emotions
Hurt from the echoes of our friendship
My heart still retreats into the cold
Becoming afraid, I can’t stop my own withdrawal
Scared now at my own efficiency of suppression
Attempts to feel anything do not last long
Failling to escape my own armor
My colorful masks hide me
As I slip farther away from my peers
I hide myself all to well
While hopeing someone will find me
Opening up to you was the start of this
You are the cause of my emotional suicide
That I commit slowly while asking in silence
“Has anyone here noticed that I am dying inside?”
Submission Name: I'm Dying Inside
