Mon Amour, Mon Amour by feildeagle

I just want this to leave me
If I died right now, it'd be too late
Too many of sorrows I've seen
So much to offer in this world
I couldn't help myself get back
My spirit gone so stale
I can't find a window to crawl to
My cracks and aches are real

I may be a fool, but listen
I know we've had our times
I've seen what we can do
I'll keep my emotions dwindled within

My heart is so heavy
I'll surely sink
Who will be there to catch me
When I do?
My stomach turns
My consience writhes
My heart hurts
When will I ever see the light?

I can't bear the thought
Seeing this in my mind
An outcove, painted blue
In my mind I make this real
I pace back and forth
I can't make it stop
You hurt me one day
One day that turned into a year
Year and a half or two
I never knew
Plunged in the dark like a tainted killer
Not deservant of the satisfaction given him
By the people that stood and watched
The person that hid in the gutter
Hid in the alleyway, always hidden
In the dark they wait
Torn between the two lives they love
Or atleast the one that they cared for at the time

I stand here now
Not as a victim of the justification of one's suffering
But one person's longing, the longing that was never real
Never there, never now

How long must I stay in the dark?
Tell me, I beg of you
How long must I keep my heart sealed in this metal box
Must my spirit be subjected to this torment as well?

I can't back away, I can't run the other way
All I hold is gone, I guess I never knew

The least you could have done was tell me when you knew
Not when you couldn't go on anymore
Mon coeur est lourd et mon esprit a couru de moi me
Donne un couteau pour découper mon coeur