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I feel pain,
And its getting to my head,
I feel sorrow and its getting
On my nerves.
I actually can tell whenever you feel sad,
I just wonder why you just wont see my sadness
Surround my body?
Its not so hard,
I mean... even if I act ad if its not there
How come you see when someones angry
And not when I am sad?
The way you look at me,
Whenever you are sad.
Why wont you realize its the same way
I look at you when Im not sad?

You care,
I can tell,
But then why wont you
Help me get out from this hell?
Why wont you allow me?
To escape this fate?
After all my pain and sorrow,
Someone else came along,
She was beautiful,
Or at least she was to me.
Whenever she smiled,
The room would light up.
It was so sad to see the way she hated herself.
When I first saw her,
I told my self.
I love her
But I decided to ignore it,
And to think of it as a passing feeling.
But then,
Within the passing days.
I realized that it wasnt just a passing feeling.
It was something that made my heart feel warm.
And my stomach go mad.

I decided to talk to her,
Even thought we had talked before.
It had felt as thought we hadnt at all.
We talked, and talked.
We came to a point when
our lips were locked together.
It was a magical moment,
It was even more magical then when I met you.
We married and lived a happy life.
But of course
There had to be an end to it.
I remember that you returned.
And stared with hate at her.
I knew you still cared,
But she was magical
So magical I couldnt help but stare.

I remember very little,
But I do remember that you took her.
You just grabbed her hand,
I remember how she slowly disappeared.
And I remember the way she looked at me.
I remember that look,
That you gave me too.
It was a look that said:
Help me! Please! Help us!
I remember how I desperately tried to help you.
But then you just faded away.

I miss her,
I miss you.
But at least now I know.
You werent angry at her,
Nor at me,
You were angry at yourself.
For letting the darkness take upon you.
Im glad I saved you.
Now you two are in heaven.
And after fifty winters,
Im finally going with you two.

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