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I used to be much smarter.
Conclusions were drawn like simple sketches,
Occam's Razor, full of finesse and had perfect timing.
Now I feel dulled, blurry, out of focus, whatever pleases you. What is it that I had that now looks like a cut out from a fashion magazine? It's so difficult to comprehend things. Am I coming back to the once fulfilling world of writing? Maybe. Maybe not. All I know is that I've got to find that certain something that once fueled me but now eludes me.
| What is it that I had that now looks like a cut out from a fashion magazine? It's so difficult to comprehend things. Am I coming back to the once fulfilling world of writing? Maybe. Maybe not. All I know is that I've got to find that certain something that once fueled me but now eludes me.|
It sounds a bit as if you'd read earlier works and wondered who'd written them because they appear to be too perfect to have been yours (cutouts from a fashion magazine?). And now you're testing the waters with the resources at hand as you search for the spark that gave all those earlier works meaning. Concluding that you were previously 'much smarter' is simply an acknowledgement that the bond you had to the works you created then is greater than it is now. Perhaps to some degree you look on a certain period of your writing as a 'golden age' that you no longer can duplicate. Which may actually be a good thing. Leave duplication for xerox machines and enjoy your new motivation..
Just my babble
|| Posted on 2007-11-17 00:00:00 | by rws | [ Reply to This ] || things get better in time trust me...it sounds stupid but it's true...just give it sometime and be patient....you'll find the things in yourself that you're looking for most of the time we don't even realize that the things that bring us down and hold us back are ourselves||| Posted on 2007-11-16 00:00:00 | by taintedsmiles | [ Reply to This ] || i sure hope you find it.|
i have missed you and was smiling to see your name on the recent posts page but stopped smiling as big after reading this because of the uncertainty it produced and potentially torturous road it may take you down...
finding something you once had can be a hard road. i like your way of showiing the reader how hard conclusions are to draw these days...
good luck and may you find that which fulfills you once more
|| Posted on 2007-11-16 00:00:00 | by Someones Epiphany | [ Reply to This ] |