Hey Hey, My My…
Sadness creeps in with no intent, it just creeps. A wave of familiar darkness leads the way. I follow mindlessly, knowing the way. No stumbling over the unknown, I’ve made this journey plenty. It doesn’t wear the pain from the past. After one travels these paths time and time again, it then becomes the path that wears, no longer the seeker. Or so it seems. Less stumbles and falls. The pain is normal. Does this mean I have found comfort within this nightmare? Or simply accepted it to be true. Can my faded soul still desire the ray of light? Is the faith still within?
I speak of truth as if I was its inventor. Living my lie, it is I whom I deceive the most.
Justifying the pain I have tossed carelessly on to the one who is “My Own.” Leading Lucifer to his broken heart, his lost home. The darkness, merely a blanket to hide my shame and grief.
Are my arms strong enough to reach him, “My Own”, help him stand high above my shadows? Is my life’s pain enough to slay the demons who taunt his soul? Will I rid the guilt of my reckless choices and reveal how strong my heart can be... Stop the selfish demons I’ve awoken and sacrifice my lie, to shun his darkness and lead him to the ray of light I seek. If I can’t, who can?
I have a single chance of one, one moment to give my unconditional love to “My Own.” He shant pay for my dance. I will find peace seeing his soul filled with happiness and contentment. I will chase the ray of light, ignoring the darkness. Believing my lie revealed is forgiven.
He must know a Mothers love can light any dark path…..
Walking "My Own" through this cold damp hell…… Safely…… to the warmth and beauty of love and Light
For "My Own.."
Shane Spencer March, 2006