You see this girl she stands so tall,
But no one sees behind it all.
It’s been so long since I’ve seen the light,
Hanging onto that everlasting fight.
Grinding my teeth with this sad heart break,
A smile that I will always have to fake.
The scars on my wrist will have to stay,
The razor was my best friend; it took the pain away.
Thru it all I thought it would go away,
But it hasn’t yesterday, and not today.
So I go on hour by hour, day by day
Wishing the pain will just go away.
I can’t say how I wish I could go back,
To that one night when you took a whack.
Maybe things will be better without you,
Because I never held it, that to be true.
Deep inside my black heart bleeds.
While in my hands the rosary beads.
The gun is loaded; I throw it to the floor.
Now there is nothing, I can do more.
So I am about to pull this trigger one more time,
I leave you my soul to find.
It’s buried deep inside those long full years,
But they have just had too many tears.
So I am gone while you are still there,
Why couldn’t you be the one, who took the care?
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