Description: My friend tyler killed himself last year. i have been having a lot of guilt about what i refused or was to afraid to tell him, i can't help but wonder that if i had told him if he would still be here today.
I promised you on that fateful night that I would find a way to make things right.
Iím sorry I wasnít everything you wanted at the time too caught up to notice that you were deteriorating.
If youíre looking down on me from heaven or up from hell please just listen I have something to tell.
I love you. I knew from the time at Devils Lake that it was somehow true but I was a coward and didnít see that you were slowly fading.
If youíre thinking that Iíd only hurt you, stop because that isnít true.
My feelings were hard to express so I kept them hidden in hopes that you would somehow gain the knowledge and finally see.
Now I realize my fatal mistake the one that changed your very fate.
If I had told you what I felt and revealed what was hidden I realize that youíd still be here with me.
Itís been a year now since you accepted fate and itís still your voice calling to me at night that I hear.
So long have I wanted to run with that voice and somehow capture it to lock it up safe and tight in the confines of my broken heart.
Childish it seems to everyone else that I canít accept that youíre gone and that this isnít just another scary dream.
Iím sorry I couldnít find a way to make things right, I tried to tell youíre mom and dad that they were the reasons behind your hurt.
Like so many adults though they turned their backs thinking youíre outbursts and depression was just for show.
I was on your side, but by the time you noticed you were so far gone that you didnít care.
Iím sorry your story had to end in a dark deathly tragedy.
No matter what though my feelings are still there, I love you still in death because where ever I am at I know in my broken heart youíll forever be there.
hey hi long time
yhis was a great story wether true or a thought everyone nos or has known someone that makes the choice of suicide
there is alwaz someone left wandering if they could prevent it and inside yor conscience will tell u