Gradually, ... I turn to you,
Heart open, wounds closed.
Our past was
accidental,
Our present,
possibly a mistake,
Our future,
unfairly misplaced.
I remember you as a child,
Unadulterated and sincere.
As the years have passed,
You have become your own nemesis,
And I your only enthusiast in vain.
We are adults today,
Still surviving each others fervor.
You’re unable to fit in my world,
And I unable to exist in yours,
But alas, we struggle every second to do so.
I love you in an honest way,
And I assume you love me indifferent.
I accept the carelessness, cruelty
And the uncommitted way
You’ve regarded our misshapen idea of love.
Today, you walk with someone else,
A woman who foolishly trusts you with her heart.
I am ashamed, that I still own a big part of you,
While she loves you, I feel I have more to lose,
I lose you, our memories, our past, present …
And the possibility of our future,
As bleak as I imagine it to be,
I can’t risk losing the only person,
In the world who has so much of me.
I don’t want to risk you & I.
So as for this moment, I sit alone,
Knowing you are with her.
Yesterday, you were mine,
And I was content with that instance,
Aching, I wait ... for the day you come for my refuge,
alone. |
Submission Name: Accidental Pasts
