Take your time, acting rash is silly in my eye. Thats the same for dudes to, let the heart feel, touch is nothing but a show created to continue the story, don't fear your secrets if you have them. hang around, you will find your partner one day. and that other you speak of, well he may well see that friendship is mutually more benificial than a love that puts touch before the heart.
This write is good honesty, I commend you for not runnng