EVERY ACTION draws a consequence, and as I said you gotta take what you can from it. Life is filled to the brim with opportunities to shine and to fall flat on your ass. Iíve fallen on mine a few times, I have also stood in the light of friendship and love, and this is what I go from it, what I learned, think, believeÖ
When in Love is ultimately what you really have in love. You have moments, ideas, feelings, but really nothing else. It is all in your head. That can be kinda scary you know? Our minds are frail and prone to just making things up. Of all the things I have put in this first collection, this is the only one that is actually a poem I just made up.
I know the feeling of love, the affection it brings. But I lost that, dunno what to, and it is gone down the drain forever (so far as she is concerned). And in my present friendship/relationship (what the fuck is it?) I have just memories of actions, words, and fleeting desires. When in love you have only two things, your thoughts, and your quickly beating aching wonder making heart.
Other Girl. When I wrote this is was in between two worlds. On the one hand, I was still stuck over my ex, and just starting to fall for this Ďother girlí. I didnít know what to do and in a lot of ways, still donít. Where I say ĎThe other girl she thinks the sameí I am referring to how I - and she - blames herself for our respective exís issues. Wanting to get over and move on, but unable to both because of the ex and caring for the damn fools.
My ex saw this poem and thought it was about her. She was heart broken when I corrected her. Guess that means I did something right in how it is worded.
Karaoke Lullabies. Not even gonna hide that this is all about Leah. God she has a hell of a voice, and it does make me weak in the knees. I love singing with her, just hearing her sing. If for some reason we part ways in life I will always remember that girlís voice and her impact on my life.
Naturally though, I end it on a negative note - the conjuration in my mind (which I thought at the time existed only there) of us going out seemed so remote. Still is, but we have gotten to be such close friends that I hardly give a damn at all. Best friends for years, or girlfriend for a month. Not even a choice.
Donít Like It. Of course, there is a budding romance, and I am simultaneously terrified and overjoyed. Yeah, sparks fly, yeah, lotís of flirty looks across rooms and invitations to family dinners, conveniently sitting next to each other. I donít like it, but I do. Itís all the conflict of friendship - versus - lovers. At the time I hadnít just decided to be a friend and let be what will be, so this was a pretty big song for me. Er, write, heh.
Scream It. Sexuality is part of human nature and relationships. But I have seen it destroys so much, especially out of wedlock. Rapes and shit, itís twisted, but strangely just as villainous is the fact the so many couples fuck and separate soon as the guy learns there is a baby on the way. I know girl going through this right now, another who probably will soon. Sex is something that kinda scares me, I donít see much love in it. Nearly every female in my life has been molested or raped. It pisses me off, and I can only imagine that some guys, lotta guys, are in dating for the fleshy reward.
New Years Kiss. True story. And my most coveted write. Not much really to say here except that I mean every fucking word of it, cept the ring bit -I just needed a rhyme (out 25 cent rings are good enough :D )
So those are a few things I have written on the subject of love and the confusion and exhilaration it brings. Not much, but take from it what you will, and hopefully younger people will get something larger from them all.
-Logan James Solomon