cut 'smile' into my thigh
so sit and watch it bleed
as it slowly creeps on his face
because he doesnt know
All we do is pace
between pure cold distance
and a convoluted warm embrance
entranced in our thoughts
Never to escape
I try to miss him
To love him
To care more
I gently carress him
I pretend he will always be there
and I can be with him forever
Because maybe it will help me feel
And justify that all this is real
I create him
In my own thoughts
As the dream guy who knows answers
Who knows questions
He is imature although older
He is lost but yet found
He is happy beyond optimism
A pessimists worst nightmare
I strangle him
in my dreams i torment him
I derange him so maybe he can catch a glimpse
Of that enemy that is
he is not my addiction
he is the guilty threat to all I have become
So i slit my wrists and grind my teeth
Because I don't love him
I just cant say no
Submission Name: Guilty Confessions
