Daughter,

I've received all your letters
I'm sorry I never wrote back
I know you think me gone
But my love you'll never lack
All the times you thought
That you didn't cross my mind
You were the only one I thought of
I wished I could turn back time

I know you think
I didn't watch you grow
But from the shadows I saw
I'm sorry I didn't let you know
I made many attempts to reach you
But always lost the nerve
Everytime I made my way home
I made sure my path would swerve

I was scared to death to talk
To say one word to you
Because I saw the pain you hid
And the sorrow I put you through
I felt ashamed and stupid
That I caused your depressing thoughts
But in the end I'm I left
Because, by your dad, you were taught

You learned to be a good person
To raise your children right
I'm sorry I made you cry
And cut yourself at night
I never meant to hurt you
But, you see, I had to leave
It wasn't a choice to be made
Sorry you had to grieve

I know it's too late for my sorries
It's far too late to hold you
I wish I would've been a better mom
Now, this is all I can do
I stand here looking at my baby
As she lays lifeless in her casket
I'm breaking fast inside
Pieces falling in a lonely basket

Seventy-four years ago
When I walked out the door
I never would've thought
Your blood would drip to the floor
You lived a life of hidden pain
Raised your children and theirs
But in the end, when you weren't needed
You gave into your eternal despair...

A mother shouldn't out live her child
Shouldn't have to see her still shell
Is this punishment for what I did?
For making you live a personal hell?
You body so cold, and though they tried
You don't look like you've fallen asleep
You look like a beautiful women
Who had too much time to weep.
Who in the end couldn't handle
Living without a mother's love
A love I stole away from you
When I knew I shouldn't of.

It's too late for apologies, far too late
Though you held the razor, I slit your wrist
I was the cause of your pain
The sorrow that would always persist
You had a long life, a wonderful life
On the outside though, inside a different tale
I wish I had told you I loved you everyday
So you wouldn't be lying here, dead and pale

I know it's too late, but I love you
With all my slowly beating heart
One day soon I'll see you Heaven
And there we will never part