My name is not hard to remember... but I do wear a T-Shirt that says "Remember my name, you will be screaming it later"
A friend of gone times bought me that from Dubai; well he was there to make some money and that he did.
I could have gone too, I was too arrogant and head strong to do anything of that sort... I am not upset, I am glad I was smart enough not to go there.
Being me is not so easy... I am bit of a eccentric, wear formal clothing most of the time and I remain serious, polite mannered and often aloof that makes people feel cozy and almost like I am harmless.
I was not like that all the time... I used to be very aggressive and always the go-getter sort.
I had a girl friend, I screwed a company management, then I lost my girl friend, I lost a new job because I would not back up, then I started my own, went back to my older roots and was essentially aimlessly wandering around looking for ways to make money.
Until now I have made some amount of money, but that is not sustainable.
I need to find ways and means to make a lot more than I am earning right now... all the money I have will soon be exhausted and I will be hitting a disparate if I did not make enough.
Ah, well what do I have to lose if I have nothing to keep... expect for my life and wandering deliberate nature of not being any good to any one... love me for what I am and I enjoy every thing I did... expect for anything that adds up to nothing...
neat ramble. |