The floor is my love
I lay sprawled thinking
Of how things got so complicated
Robin Thicke’s songs plays
Though I wish it were another
A sad song that says what I’m feeling
I never meant for things to go as they have
Thought I knew from the beginning
Played a left and made a left into you
What happened to play left go right?
You never were the one to do it on your own
Chantilly lace cutesy girl bullshit
Essence of a Girly hooker
How I feel at times
Spread legs gets the world fed
The lace is just extra packaging
Yet I’m still complicated
I try to feel
I am cold to all
All except who’ve shown me love through the harshest times
I know that was love
Yet I’m still complicated
Blame me for hiding my emotions
I know not how to let go anymore
I have to much to worry about
My life
Yet I’m still complicated
To be so far and yet not close enough to my dream
I wait
Yet I’m still complicated
Twenty Years young and taking the world
I have no kids to bother me
No hounding ex’s
Yet I’m still complicated
My heart isn’t the easiest to get a hold of
It comes and goes like the weather
One minute you are loved
The next hated
Yet… you know my demons
I once thought of little girl dreams
Until a grown man woke me up
With his fist in my eye
Yet …
I repeat myself to give you awareness
To open myself up to heal
Yet…
Yet I still am misunderstood
I swallow 15 pills hoping to drown
In bodily fluid
Colors pass by
Eyes flutter
I pass out
Thinking hoping is it the end
Yet…
I lay at night holding my sheets
Pain all over
Minor heart attacks encase themselves within mine heart
Haunt me when I’m 35
Yet…
I fell in love
With him though he only wanted to play with my heart
Yet…
I swore to myself no other man would be
Him
Though I live with the consequences of my heart
Yet…
This is the end
Only 28 pills left to go I know for sure this will be the end
Of all my complicated ways, misunderstandings, confusions
They end with death
Oct. 13, 2007 12:00am Deceased
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Submission Name: Random
