Most of the time I just want to sit around my tiny room & do absolutely nothing by myself
or go out skateboarding [but it's too cold]
or smoke marijana & write lyrics to songs
no-one will ever hear...I like isolation & thunderstorms & being angry
I'll never pretend I'm hard at work on this month's new trend,
climbing up the corporate ladder
scanning our demographics, looking for
prime investment strategies...What a waste of a human mind!
I'd rather just live life & be able to get money
on the wings of my own good sense
Fuck the social niceties. Maybe I'm a sociopath. Sometimes these crazy feelings well up
inside of me & I can't help myself
from desiring to shatter giant windows, to explode into
random fits of cursing, to run away from everyone & everything...It's like nothing will make me feel better,
normal. She puts me in a bad mood. Maybe I'm too good at manipulation. There's nothing to do.
Would it be better to smoke & drink & fight & get laid and gamble everyday & travel & do every sort of fun thing there is to do in this world & only live 10 or 15 years, or
live a long boring life of kids & job & wife & mortgage payments?
[conditioning] tells us that the latter path is the correct choice
but I just don't feel that way
I strive for more
or less, depending upon
which way you look at it
The only things one must absolutely have
are:
food
clothing
shelter
water
music
skateboarding
& nevermind anything else, like who really needs
sex or drugs or
a wife or
love or
good credit or
a perfect driving record or
pretty social acquaintances or
a more impressive income?
The mass thinks collectively, does it not? There are agreements & arguments, but
we ALL put on our different faces or attitudes for teachers, parents, friends, lovers, ugly people, strangers...
we tell them lies. they want to hear them.
the business world operates on this ethic.
It's second nature
or does it come first? either way it's
subconcious how we are not the same person to different people
& how every person is all of the people that they approve of
or share common views with or take influence from...
& I have a feeling that most of the cars around me are driving illegally
just like me
some have no insurance
some are smuggling drugs
some have no license
some bodies stinking in the trunk, heading to some god-forsaken
farm owned by a "friend of the family"
some carry stolen guns
some are fugitives
some have unpaid fines
some are drunk
some have prescription medicine
w/out a prescription... |
Submission Name: I think I'm through [listening to you]
