No More Pain by change

I sit on the floor
Feeling the cold tiles against my bare skin
At the moment I'm suprised I can feel anything
The pain is too much to handle
I've been lied to and blamed
For things out of my control
I look down and I see a blade
I place it against my arm
Slowly pushing the razor blade
Deeper into my flesh
I see the blood trickling out of the broken flesh
Creating little droplets that look like red tear drops
No longer do I feel anything
Just relief and satisfaction
As I sit here on the floor
I believe I am invincable
No one anywhere has the ability
To make me feel any lower than I do at the moment
I look into the mirror and gaze upon my reflection
Out of no where I begin to cry
I pray to God please take me away
Why should I be alive
Is there a purpose for this torture
A reason for all this dispair
Im hurt and Im cold
Focused on the red blood seaping through my white tee shirt
I see myself for who I am
Something I wish you could do
A beautiful being with so much pain
I hope you are happy now
These scars are symbols on my body
Each distinguished mark
Symbolizing all the pain you've put me through
Like a mirror projecting my insides
As tattered skin on the outside