Deep dark gashes on my soft pale skin
I know I cannot win the battle within
It feels so good, it is so wrong
It;s better than crying all day long
So much pain dwells inside me
No way to make see: I must bleed
I truly wish there was a better way
But sadly, there isn't: nothing I can say
The only way to let them know
Is to let the crimson river flow
They don't know what is inside my mind
Or what I'm thinking about all the time
My sorrow began in earlier years
Soon after, I dried all my tears
They all say I shouldn't cut
I wish I wouldn't but
There's just so much pain
That cutting is the happiness I gain
Every cut, every slice, all the blood
It fills my soul with a roaring flood
Momentary solace is all I ask for
I just can't stand the incessant pain anymore |