She doesn't say it and she shouldn't have to--
but she's feeling neglected and fragile;
he's upset with his father, his granny, the world--
and she can't seem to do or say anything right.
She wordlessly hugs him and kisses his cheek--
kisses his lips and tastes bitter disappointment;
she knows she's not the best company tonight--
--wishes he could understand her earnest attempt.
He says he's cramped here on the couch--
naturally, she suggests they move to the bed;
he shrugs it off so easily and rises to go there--
and she's wondering if he consciously decided to.
Running on autopilot, she tucks him in gently,
kisses his cheeks, his lips, his throat--his eyelids;
she wants to crawl inside him to drive out the sad,
but she settles for sliding between cool sheets.
She offers him a massage and a hug,
He accepts, rolling over for the treatment;
Unyielding, he lies there--
like an old harlot used to the work.
Eventually, she finishes there and notes--sadly--
that he's sleepy and so she gets off to lie down;
Again, she curls into his loose, automatic embrace,
Pondering how she'll hold back the pained tears.
Soon, he's dozing off--mostly asleep--so she sighs;
She squeezes her eyes shut but the tears leak--
and she breathes a frustrated expletive, upset,
Upset that her own emotion so betrays her.
Resolved, she dives into the darkness--sleep,
reaching blinding, she tugs at the Sandman's robe;
He sprinkles her lightly with the golden salvation
And offers her a silent smile of wordless comfort.
Unaware then, she misses his eyes--
Eyes opened to stare down into her face, upset--
knowing he's wounded her today--
with his anger, his silence--his chill.
He hand rises and his thumb caresses the hollow dip
There--in the corner of her eye--a tear;
It's sparkling like liquid diamond sadness--
He takes it away in accursed silence.
He knows he cannot apologize enough--
Apologize or plead or erase it all--
he can only try harder to protect her from himself
And hope fervently that it's enough.
Slumber creeps up on him and his embrace tightens,
drawing her near to him so she cannot escape;
she holds her to him even as he sinks below--
joining the darkness where a small figure cries.