you there? -------------------------------------------
I need someone to talk to.
What would you say if I told you
My twin sister and I are depressed
If I told you she had more of a reason than I do
What would you say if I told you
I am talking to her boyfriend and some random stranger she confides in
so they can tell me what to do
because she won’t talk to me
And I don’t know why
What would you say if I told you he loves me
If I told you there is more than one
And love scares me like crazy
because I don’t know when I feel it and when I don’t
And I don’t want to end up hurting anyone
What would you say if I told you
I followed the directions
Straight through to the end
And yet I didnt get the right conclusion
instead things just got worse
I told you that he told me to stand by her and tell her it hurt me too
But then she just felt worse
And I sat next to her just to hold her hand
because really I just needed someone to hold mine
But instead I made her relive it
Until she wanted to do more than cry
What would you say if I told you
That I fake my smile everyday because I think it might make her happy
And I think about attempting to commit suicide
Because I can tell she doesn’t need me
What would you say if I told you that I don’t want to tell you anything?
Because the pain is too hard to bear
When she finds out that we talk in secret
And she can hear our whispers
What would you say when I can’t talk to you any more
Because I don’t want to steal you from her
Because its not right to be stolen
And she deserves more
If I may ask, how many times am I 'he'? How many times did I cause you this pain, this dilemma, that's driving you insane? Endless thoughts that keep racing through your brain. I'm rhyming again, I know I should stop. But when I can't find a smile, it's either this or pop. I wish there was a way, that I could make it better. Then I wouldn't feel so helpless, dejected to the letter. For when you hurt, I hurt. When you smile, I smile. And any time you need me, I'll be here for a while. Now that we have said our piece, and got that off our chest. Maybe we could all sit down, and figure out what's best.