So... you're 22 now? Holy fuck, you're getting up there. You still in college? Living in Chicago still? Japan? New Jersey? Wherever you are, I hope it's a big and busy city. I figure you're still tired of boring, little towns. Living in an apartment or a house, or a hippie van (like you wanted to in middle school )?
Are you perfect yet? I'm still disgusting at like 120 or so. 40 more pounds to lose. I hope you haven't gone too far and been hospitalized. I don't want you to read this and relapse or something. It'd be cool if you were a model though! ^0^/ Doubt it, cos you're so short. But you never know.
Have a boyfriend yet, loser? If so, tell him I said he's crazy to put up with you; but thanks, because I know you'd be a lot happier with him. If not, then WTF dude?!
Are you still talking to the same people? Made new friends or anything? I hope you're not lying to yourself to get or keep them. Don't change -who- you are, just how you'll look.
OH! Been in a -real- band yet? Ever do anything with Jisatsu no Hana? Or Novakill? Or Catnip Overdose even... I hope you are, even had a chance, doing something musically.
What about fashion? Sold anything yet? I really hope you haven't given up on that dream. I know how much it means to you.
I'm sitting in U.S. History, second period. Yeah. You remember it. I can hear them doing the soundcheck for the senior tribute in the gym. All my friends are graduating.
Mom's probably going to take mike back. That weak bitch. I'm probably going to move in with Tiffany at her mom's house.
I found out that I'm pretty rad at Guitar Hero! Pretty sweet huh? Why am I telling you all of this? You already know.
Less about me, let's talk about you! Hmmm... where do I think you're at? In college at the Chicago Institute of Arts (or something like that) studying to be a fashion designer. Living in either a dorm or by yourself (or w/Tiffany if she went there too, as planned) in an apartment. No boyfriend, that's just silly. Blonde hair. Really thin. Working at a bookstore, personal boutique, or coffee shop.
OR
You're in an awesome punk band. Really really thin. Living in a friend's apartment. Awesome boyfriend. Almost famous.
Man, either would be awesome! @_@ I really don't know what to say. Have you talked to mom in these four or five years? I hope not. I guess I'll just list a bunch of memories you shouldn't forget.
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[middle school]Grave rubbings. Charlie the vamp。. Air band (blink 182) in the kitchen. My guitar. The day I got it. Wannabe punk in the 8th grade. Mardi. DQ slushies. Old Hill Cemetery. Youth Group <--- scavenger hunt. Brea Choppers. Capture the flag. Spraying Ryan in the ear on the 1st day of 9th grade. The hotel where mom called and told me to move to dad's. Linkin park at Ryan's house. Hamtaro. Sour candy at Ryan's mom's house;Bob and Shirley. Cop porn. Troll porn.Golfcart. First tampon in 6th grade [tmi,
] "allergic reaction to an energy drink". . Ripping your sugarcult shirt trying to skateboard. Anne Rice: 9th grade study hall. Stupid boy in German class. Koo Bitten. Soapy and wet trampoline. Going to pages w/Punk-o-Rama CDs. The Brotherhood - house. Schneikledorphing. Getting called to the office in 8th grade for wanting to be a pirate.Jones soda. Corey Apple Fest. sniffing arpits. Reading at the racetrack. Mustang Salley. Brea. "The Man on the 50". Mr. Gill.. First heartbreak [(staunton)]. Staunton. Skinny Dipping. Creepy Richard. Creepy squirrel and the marker.."I'm a duck."
[high school&present]"Oh..." <--- iPod. Dir en grey bible. Diru disbanding rumour. Lolita prom. . Calling chupacabras.Singing at the cow palace. Being mistaken as a boy @ walmart. DDR @ the mall. Scene kids >.>;; Winning Earth Day comp in 11th grade. Art History. Farting on Koji. Hugging the wankster in Lolita! Tuesday schools. Summer @ Koji's. Curry. Exploding miso soup. Giant pocky. Changing in Walden Books. Taking picture of the pizza man. Secret agent rolls. . Seeing Diru @ FVT. Seeing Diru in Chicago. All of the friends. The Final during soundcheck. Wandering the halls. That tall girl with the awesome coat. . Midgets. Hobos. Fuck Elvis. Mr. Peppy Sunshine. Ninjas @ the Jade Dragon. getting yelled at by that mean lady at the best Chinese place. L.O.V.E. in the potty.The dance contest at Stargazers. Fizzy Pop incense. Consensual. Pokemon. Hearts. Obscure. Almost passing out in the pit. Getting lost during KoRn in the pit @ FVT. The pretty guy @ the bloomington Chinese place. calamari. Meadows. Dixie. Resubian sekkusu. Ne, waratte yo, mou nakanai de, koko kara zutto, anata wo mite iru wa. The helium incident. Harry Potter. Suicide. Excedrin. Remember Ihop. That pervy guy in the car. The spitting contest between Tomo & you. Chugging syrup and making Koji puke. Matiukas & his awesome and mournful hair. Getting caught playing in the trashcan. Dancing behind the vending machines. Fitting in the school locker. Your fauxhawk being mistaken as a vote. Panda Z. Maochan. The Tingle incident. Chugging contests. Para Para. Drunken Para Para. Vomiting diet mountain dew from chugging @ Ashley's B-day party. Moist!The Villiage. Jumping on the dirty mattress with Squirrel and his friend. ASS stunts. DDR. Mrs. Robbins
[childhood&recent non-friend related]Orange cinnamon rolls @ Christmas. The day I got my American Girl doll.LA spring break . L.O.V.E. through the aisle in Walmart. "science project"Christina's mom's cooking. Raffie behind the door. "Doctor" The Carmens. Danielle France. Danielle Pesuit. Lacey and Jr. chasing the ice cream man. Honeysuckles by the roller blade court. McGuire AFB falcon courts north 315 E. scott st. Writestown. Ft. Dix. Getting your ID card @ nine. indoor recess and the headphones. Looking at Felicia's pictures around the end of the year and announcing my moving. Art class - big wooden tables - long windows covered in white paper. Amanda and her long skirts. Clair's, Icing. Nickelodeon's Snow Day. The Youth Center. Yvette. Beading by the woods. "Jungle boogie" as sung by Andre. The pool. Cassie Toole. Seaside Heights. 25 cent slot machines. Roller coasters. The beach. Atlantic ocean. Space ghost coast to coast. Braking the plastic box with my foot. Toy Story 2 and sour patch kids. Commissary. The BX. Shoppettes. Afees. Our snowman. Sledding. Lemony snow (no, not pee). Writing to Jesus w/ Christina for "specialness". Hearing the F-word from Stephens mom. Our neighbor who cooked and her daughter who was afraid of our pets. My day bed. Staring at the white lumps on the wall to ignore "the monsters." being stuck on the stairs and duck tape. Sliding down Christina's stairs on comforters. Gel pens. Being scared by the goth kid at Best Buy. Beautiful Dreamer. Tenshi. Princess Mononoke. DBZ and DB. B★witched. The Big Bike Expedition. Dry ramen. Learning cursive . Laying in the back of Dad's white firebird on the way back from shopping while listening to "Wheels in the Sky" by Journey and watching the white-flowering trees pass by against the darkening night sky at the dark window. Reluctantly playing tag. Unsuccessful resurrection of the duck. "fairies" "The Peeing Tree" My friend falling in the creek when trying to fish w/sticks for bugs. Wacky World. Foggy Halloween. Scaring the little girl in the Halloween parade. Sleeping through school @ the Youth Center. The Nightshirt and Coke incident. The merry go round. Ripping my favourite shirt while trying to impress A.J. by jumping off the swing. The newspaper fish tank at the Youth Center. Learning War from the nerdy kid. Telling everyone how dad installed all the programs on the computers.Hansen. Starbucks when you were little. Milo. Harley. Hoosier. The NJ Nailpolish incident.Jimmy Sweeny.Open casket funeral.Mamaw. Her gumbo. Crawfish palace. Tootsie. Getting honked at by that model-T. 4th of July fireworks as a family. NFG - jumping and being recognized. The Casualties shirt. Penguin. Chupacabras. Getting patted on the head by the concessions stand @ the GC concert.Kansas live. . Mardi Gras in NJ. Hiding @ the park during a dance in NJ. Caterpillar hunting. Hiking w/Dad. Camping w/Dad. Dad crying @ Dutty's house and blaming himself for me. Finding that letter from Mom to Mike. Finding that letter from Dad to Kasey. The massive repercussions from stealing that locket. Anne Rice, Chopin, sweet tea. Loopaleers. Scary movies at Dad's house. Herbie. Surrender by LTJ, wiffleball & Dad. Motorcycle ride w/Dutty.Mrs. Phillips. Fielddays. Book Sales. Old man joe. The NJ bike trail. Old Nickelodeon. Beatrix Potter. Apple Valley Cafe.
[Alabama and Michigan]Dixie dogs. "Whachour name is." Elizabeth Dunn. Frog dissection w/the big scary girl. The mobile pad incident! Mexican. Little Birdie. 16 degrees below, crinoline, Bessemer.
[Eating disorder] Fasting for a week in April '07. . Sinking into my seat in German in 10th grade and feeling my ribs, hipbones, and thinness [me: yeah, glad I'm done with that >.>;;] The first purge [me: highly regretted]
Submission Name: Letter to Myself [5 years from now]
