THE PICTURE SMILES BACK
I shout at your picture, “I trusted you!”
As my anger takes over my pain.
“I’m not gonna cry over someone like you!”
But the tears start to fall once again.
You told me you’d see me tomorrow,
But that was now five days ago.
I haven’t heard anything from you
And I’m starting to think that I won’t.
I can’t believe how bad it hurts me
To know you could leave me so fast.
Did you already know as you left me
That the last time we had was our last?
Was it something I said? Was it something you did?
Did I miss something I should’ve seen?
I trusted you Jonathan, I really did.
I at least thought you’d say bye to me.
But after I’ve had time to re-think things
I’m starting to see I was wrong.
I said that I trusted you, and I still do.
It was ME who messed up, all along.
I was trusting you to be like someone you’re not,
To behave like your nature forbids.
I’d better off trust that a giant oak tree
Could behave like a buttercup did.
What an idiot girlfriend I have been for you.
I was doing the whole thing for me!
Every kindness I showed you, each thing that I’d do
Was to make you beholden to me.
I was buying your love like a prostitute deal,
"Here’s some coffee, so now love me Jon."
And I then have the nerve to point fingers at YOU.
It’s no wonder to me that you’re gone.
So now I’ll find out if I really loved you
By the way that I act with you gone.
If I’m really grown up then I wouldn’t want you
To be here when you want to move on.
If I ever get lucky and see you again
I will tell you I’m okay you left,
I’m just glad that you stayed for as long as you did
And gave me so much of yourself.
I say to your picture, “I do still trust you!”
And the picture just smiles back at me.
I will trust you enough to let you just be you,
Not someone I need you to be.