I truly know how you feel the lonelyness the confusion the pain.
I know it's hard but It will be o.k
Iv'e been through the same thing and I still feel the pain and I wonder why I even want with her in the first place.
Some day you will find the right person for you and until then you just have to wait and let time pass by and If you need to talk to someone you can talk to me but is you choice.
I injoyed this poem and hope to read more.