How Many Times? -------------------------------------------
How many times have I lied?
How long have I hid from them?
I push myself away just to breathe
I create a new story just to live
How many times did I cry?
How long have I sat in fear?
Nothing could stop these feelings
Nothing is right anymore
How many times did I cut myself?
How long did I sit there in despair?
It all becomes the mystery I ignore
It isn’t how I wanted to go on living
How many times did I want to die?
How long was I left all alone?
Don’t pretend that you understand
Don’t try and be there for me now
How many times will you fail me again?
How long will it be before you give up?