No more of this
time to let go
you’re someone
in my heart
in my head
someone my body calls out for
and waits listening
for the answering
deafening
silence

Only I can save myself
from this fool I’ve become
snared in this connection
mired in this chemistry
before I get stuck here
forever

These feelings endanger trust
the cornerstone of any marriage
so how I feel for you
would only break it
one moment of indiscretion
that would rob you of your joy and
happiness

Joy and happiness
only she can give you
I could never hurt you that way
the cause of your life changing forever
could I even live with that?
never

So now when you see me
I will be me
the me I’ve always been
assuaging my need to cause laughter
no censor between my thoughts
and my big mouth
tease first, think later
a sarcastic smart ass
a harmlessly flirting
comedienne

You’ll never know
as I play my games
the ones you so enjoy
that I’m just going through the motions
while hiding the residue
of how I feel for you
behind our friendship
buried