Come In Closer. by dark

I’m so sorry, but you see, I’ve become everything I cannot be.
This sickly twisted f*cked up thing, probably imagining everything.
I play a good role, you see, no one really knows anything of me.
I’ve played my cards to well though, for I’ve remained life’s mystery.

Please, come in closer, I can only reach so far.
I realize I’ve trapped myself within these walls,
I’ve been dancing with devils, they haunt me day and night.
I’ve been trying, been fighting with all my might.

I’ve gone back to thinking that maybe life’s not for everyone, life’s not for me.
Quiet little scenarios play out in my mind, wondering just who would notice me.
I’ve never been so lonely, but It’s not like I’m scared, it’s all on me.
Just hold my hand and show some concern, tell me that you’re there.

To much is quiet, I’m quietly coming undone.
Exaggerated sighing, that’s all you’ve ever done..
Cry, cry CRY! I can no longer be calm.
Hold myself at night, tell myself everything IS going to be alright.

Please, come in closer, I can only reach so far.
I realize I’ve trapped myself within these walls.
The devils I’ve danced with, they haunt me day and night.
I’ve been trying; I swear I’ve been trying to fight.

So here’s the hardest part to write, it’s telling you I’m a mess.
What kind of mess I mean, the kind that eats too much and never eats a thing.
The kind that tries to hard to make everyone smile, and then curls up to cry a little while.
The kind that smiles publicly through it all, never blinking once to let a single tear fall.

Please, come in closer, I can only reach so far.
I know I’m trapped, I’ve gone down to far.
Becoming comfortably numb, I’m tired of trying.
Really now, what’s wrong with dieing?

Please, come in closer, I can only reach so far.
I’m so trapped, I’ve gone down to far..
How do I ask you this? Help me through.
Take my hand, and show me you.