I used to be happy, or so I thought
Now looking back, I see that I was just too young to
Understand
It was my fault, It must have been
Why would someone that loves me
Hurt Me?
I got older, and my eyes opened
The world became more dark, more
Terrifying
Forbidden to cry, to scream, to anger
I had to find a way out, to
Let Go
A silent painkiller, a welcoming release
No one would have to know. Just me
In My Room
No guilt, no remorse. It was their fault
Not mine. I was free of blame, Free of
Blood
Each stab and slice, taking edges off the nightmare
My parents had driven me into. Red lines replacing
Bruises
I would look at other people carefully
Do they hurt too? Can we relate? Are we the
Same?
Half disappointment, half relief. No marks
They smile, I smile back and laugh. I've never felt more
Alone
Was this the master plan? This is my escape plan?
When did I end up in the bathroom? On the floor
Fading
I wake up in cold liquid, everything foggy
Clothes stained red, my face reflecting in passing death
I'm Alive
I tried to escape pain that was delivered to me
By creating my own to cancel it out. To
Equalize
It's been two years, and I'm starting to breathe easier, smiling.
Fading white lines are carried with me, The enemy that I
Escaped
I still survey people. But not for company.
Simply for a chance, to take my hand. As I help them
Into The Brightest Light They Could Ever Imagine
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Submission Name: Silent Enemy
