WHEN I WAS JUST A LITTLE GIRL
I WAS YOUR EVERYTHING AND MORE
YOUR “TINKERBELL” YOUR “PEANUT BUTTER”
WHEN I WAS HURT YOU RAN STRAIGHT TO MY DOOR.
AFTER YOU AND MOTHER FINISHED A QUARREL
YOU WOULD RUSH IN MY ROOM AS I WEEPED
SINGING THAT SWEET SOMBER SONG OF AMAZING GRACE
I FELT SAFE IN YOUR ARMS AS I FELL ASLEEP.
THE DIVORCE BROKE MY HEART
IN WAYS I COULDN’T FATHOM TO REPAIR
WHEN YOU LEFT I WANTED TO GO WITH YOU
BUT INSTEAD YOU JUST LEFT ME THERE.
THE WEEKENDS AND HOLIDAYS WERE SPECIAL
WITH YOU I HAD A GLISTEN IN MY EYES
BUT THEN THE DAY YOU LEFT WITH NO RETURN
INSIDE, A LITTLE, I DIED.
SO LONG I WAITED FOR YOU TO COME BACK
I STARED OUT MY WINDOW ALL DAY AND EVERY NIGHT
“I THOUGHT YOU LOVED ME DADDY, WE WERE A TEAM.”
WHY WOULD YOU LEAVE ME HERE ALONE TO FIGHT?
I FELT ABANDONED AND TOSSED ASIDE
I FELT LIKE AN OLD DIRTY SHOE
HOW COULD YOU LEAVE YOUR BABY GIRL FOR DRUGS AND HER
AFTER I TOLD SO MANY LIES AND PROTECTED YOU.
I UNDERSTAND YOU DID THE SAME FOR ME
WE WERE SO UTTERLY CODEPENDENT
BUT DID YOU HAVE TO LEAVE ME THERE WITH HER?
WITHOUT YOU I FELT TWISTED AND BENT.
EVENTUALLY YOU STOPPED WRITING
THE PHONE CALLS STOPPED TOO.
IT’S LIKE YOU FORGOT YOUR LITTLE TINKERBELL
DIDN’T I MEAN ANYTHING TO YOU!!?
THE EMOTIONS I HAD INSIDE OF ME
I COULD NO LONGER BARE
SO I LEARNED TO TURN THEM OFF
WITH A NEW FRIEND WHO CARED
THE NEEDLE TASTED AMAZING
FOR DRUG USE I’M NOT BLAMING YOU
FOR I KNOW ULTIMATELY IT WAS MY CHOICE
BUT I USED IT TO BLOCK THE MEMORIES OF YOU.
IN AND OUT OF REHAB
REFUSING TO TALK ABOUT THE PAIN
AS I WRITE THIS POEM TEARS SWELL IN MY EYES
THE MEMORIES RUN RAMPID THOUGHOUT MY BRAIN.
I CAME TO WASHINGTON TO FIND YOU
FOR WE WERE EACH OTHER’S HEART AND SOUL
BUT THE BOTH OF US WERE STRUGGLING WITH OUR ADDICTIONS
AND I FELT EVEN MORE SO OUT OF CONTROL.
I ADMIT THE DAY I WALKED OUT
I WAS WRONG AND MADE YOU FEEL BLUE
IT WAS THEN I KNEW THAT MY FAMILY WAS RIGHT
I WALK AWAY FROM PROBLEMS WHICH MADE ME JUST LIKE YOU.
I BECAME THE PERSON I RESENTED
AND FOR THAT I HAVE MYSELF TOO BLAME
THROUGH ANGER AND PAIN, JUST LIKE YOU
I DROVE MYSELF INSANE.
I DON’T REGRET BEING A LOT LIKE YOU
FOR YOU’RE CHARASMATIC AND SMART
HOPEFULLY WE CAN WORK THROUGH THIS AGONY
AND BEGIN A FRESH, HEALTHY NEW START.
SO TODAY IT’S TIME FOR THE TEARS TO FALL
UNDERSTAND, THERE’S NO OTHER WAY TO MAKE DUE
I DON’T E
ECT AN APOLOGY, FANCY GIFTS OR MONEY
I JUST WANT THE FATHER BACK THAT I ONCE KNEW
I SINCERELY LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART
THAT’S WHY I KEEP RUNNING BACK TOO YOU
YOU’VE HURT ME IN A GREAT DEAL OF WAYS
BUT TODAY I LOOK PAST ALL OF THAT AND FORGIVE YOU.
Submission Name: DEAR DADDY
