it's scares me sometimes,
knowing that i will never see your smiling face again,
i don't know how i drag myself out of bed everyday, to go to a place that i know all i'll think of is you,
a place filled with memories.
i'm so scared,
i don't know if i can do this anymore,
all i want is out.
i'm so done.
i can barely look at a picture of you without breaking down.
for some reason everything reminds me of you now.
sometimes when i think of you, i end up laughing and crying at the same time,
because i love you, but i miss you.
i just want to hug you one more time,
and never let go.
i miss you so much, and i know that no matter how much i say that, you won't just show up again.
i wish you were here, to hug me everyday, just like it used to be.
just not being able to see you kills me.
i feel like i haven't seen the sun in days, because all that's left are clouds.
i love you.