Through these tides of fear,
Salvation drifts in the distance.
With each breath of ice through lips of frost,
The more I kick,the more I drown.
In this sea,in this great sea of self disapointment.
The rising and sinking and drifting,
Of every consciousness I've ever known.
Wave after endless,eternal wave,
Filling my lungs with the ashes of a past disfigured.
The reflection on the surface,an internal reminder,
Of the vanity of hatred I've become.
These memories,so many memories,
Fade to the wind like a retribution of horror.
Tears cascade into this ocean of anger,rage and confusion.
I'm to blame,I'm forever to blame.
Informal regrets sting like cauterized wounds,
And I've come to realize,
That through her vision of clarity,
Im nothing more than a shard of regret in her broken past.
A nightmare of tainted malllace soaked in deciet.
And so through crimson lashes,
I keep the end in mind.
Shallow confrontations lead to a darkened acceptance.
Purification of an internal damnation is ineveitable.
This realization shatters every laugh or smile in time,
These threads of existance,
Screaming to exist no more.
This monstrosity of pain,agony,and ache.
That reality has flooded into my very soul,
No longer chains you with the restraints of the broken hearted.
The freedom your very being longs for,now within reach.
In this darkness,my head hangs in shame.
This burden I've become is to blame.
And with a final breath and a whisper goodbye.
I fall to the depths of hopelessness.
And I keep the end in mind.