Life’s just a struggle, especially high school. I never thought that I would end up like a character on a tv show….having embarrassing moments, not making friends, trying to talk to people, but people don’t seem to hear or see you, making fun of you behind your back, being rude and mean. I also find out to be more irritated lately by giggly girls and boys swearing constantly for 10 minutes. I just want to shout out them to shut their mouths, but I just sit there waiting for my turn to get off the bus or for them to go away. I feel insecure walking down the hallway. I can’t explain how much I desire to be confident and walk with my head high and greet people. Instead I’m silent constantly fighting with my inner demons like possible rejection and the respect of no one. I try to care about people, though it seems it doesn’t warm them…because they forget about me the instant one of their friends appear. I am a no one…I’m the blank space which people stare into but never see. I stick out raw like a thumb because of my ethnicity in a white population of teens and teachers. I’m proud of my culture and proud of who I’m. I just wish that others could see me for “me” and sometimes not for that culture. I don’t want to be just the smart or quiet girl. I want them to see “me”. I’m tired of being seen as boring and mature. Sometimes I want to let loose and be a kid who can laugh freely and not be afraid of the consequences. My struggles against the chains that bind me are never ending. Will I ever be able to truly find my place? |
Submission Name: A glimse of highschool
