My mind is confused,
unsure if I should be with you.
Most of my tears
are unseen by you.
But every night
I sleep on a pillow
drenched with my tears.
When I'm around you,
I can't help but be happy.
When you're away
I'm depressed because
I can't stop thinking
that your heart belongs to her.
It kills me inside
because I know that soon,
you will have all of my heart.
I'm slowly trying to hold on,
to stop myself from
giving away my heart too quickly.
As much as I'm trying,
I can't because you're taking
part of my heart
every time I see you.
I knew from the beginning
that this wouldn't last,
but I went for it
because I didn't think I would
get so attached,
not like this,
no so fast.
And even now
as my tears fall,
I find it hard to believe
that this will end happily.
When it does end,
I'm afraid I won't be
able to be just friends.
We won't be able to go back
because there's nothing
for us to go back to.
We were developing a
friendship during the time
we were developing
a relationship.
A relationship
that was built upon a lie.
I'm struggling inside because
part of me wants you,
and wishes you would never leave.
The other side, however,
wants nothing to do with you.
My tears are falling inside
because I don't want you
to see them.
But you need to know
what you are doing to me.
You tell me you understand,
but I don't think you get it.
You tell me it's my decision,
I decide whether or not
we stay together.
You keep telling me
that what you think doesn't matter
because you don't matter.
It makes me think
you're not paying any attention
because if you were,
you would see how much
you mean to me. |
Submission Name: untitled
