Description: this is whats happening in my life right now
why are you so different -------------------------------------------
"here my heart goes
breaking again" you say
when all i do is tell you how i feel
i do have a problem
cutting is an addiction
you hurt yourself and i hurt you
so why can't i punish myself
and make myself feel better about this
all i want is to be okay
i don't want this problem
but i can't let go
cutting is who i am
it makes me
and theres nothing i can do about it
its been a couple days
and i'm trying
i really am
but its all that runs through my mind
"there are razors in the bathroom"
says my conscience
and i think
"aren't you supposed to tell me whats right?"
i don't understand anymore
even my conscience is against me
so why aren't you
wut makes you feel
so different from the rest of the world
this is my breakdown
i can't stop it
i can't even sleep
because its always on my mind
and your always on my mind
when i sleep the images blurr
i see you and i see blood my worst nightmare
when i awake it hurts so much
so i choose to stay awake
still suffer
at least its a little better that way
I really liked this piece. I like the way its different from my own, not rhyming, no stanzas, just emotions, and pain and honesty. I can feel the stuggle when you say:
"i don't want this problem
but i can't let go
cutting is who i am
it makes me
and theres nothing i can do about it
its been a couple days
and i'm trying
i really am"
Keep writing, and I hope you overcome your addiction. its hard I know, but you can do it. :)
Submission Name: why are you so different
