the echoes of the life before
still linger deep inside.
the pain it still shows brightly
it's grown too hard to hide.
my scars I wear them plainly
I've held nothing in.
I'm hoping now for changes
but where do I begin.
The cobwebs long ago it seems
built a wall that none could break.
built from tangled strands from time
forged out of all my mistakes.
I cant let another near
I cant be there not again.
dying from regrets of old
the cost -a love, my kids, some friends.
I have payed my debt with intrest
and I've payed for what I've done.
I've prayed at night "please give me strength"
and "help me just to overcome"
Once I lived to hold you tight
Once I gave you all of me.
but, so many times have passed
when you my dear have made me bleed.
I gave up. I just gave in.
I wait for you no longer.
and each day, that you're away,
I grow that day much stronger.
Leave me with my walls, and pain
leave me with all my regrets.
Taunt me from a distance still
but know that I have payed my debt.
You can't hurt me any more
you lost you chance just let me be.
The hope has faded day by day
and left this hole inside of me.
I can't fill it. can't avoid it
I can't hide it anymore.
It's crippled me from all the pain
and left me half, I was before.
I hope that you can sleep at night,
cause mine is filled with haunted dreams.
my love, forever, I must go
and wait for what tomorrow brings.