I still wonder in my mind
why am I still with you?
You've brought me to tears
more than anybody else has,
yet, I don't want to let go,
not yet, not so soon.
There are times
I sit in my room and cry
because you don't seem
to understand that your words
are getting under my skin.
There have been many guys
that have been in my life,
that still want to be in my life,
and they would never
make me cry as much as you do.
You abuse me with the words
that come out of your mouth
and I take every last one of them,
still too afraid to let you go.
I can't explain why I still love you,
but my heart stays attached to you.
I want my pain gone,
and the obvious way for that
is to leave you.
It's so easily said,
but I can't put myself
through that again.
Every time you hit me
with the words that come
out of your mouth,
and the tears start to fall,
you come to wipe away the tears,
and believe everything is okay again.
The tears will be gone that minute,
but they come back again
to haunt me in my sleep.
When I awake
with my damp cheeks
from a night of crying,
no one is here to comfort me.
No one is here to wipe away my tears.
I wipe away my own tears,
and hide them.
And I wait for the next time you snap
the next time you yell,
and the next time I cry.
My abuser, I give up. |
Submission Name: My Abuser
