I knew a girl once, she was only 15, high spirited and lovely, always when she walked into my classroom, once a long time ago, she was one of the few that lit up the floor with smiles...
Everyone was in love with her, I was the same, she was beloved by everyone...if you had asked me then, do you believe in God? I would reply without hesistation, "yes, for creating someone as beautiful as her, till the angels grow envious"
A morning just like any other, she walked into class just like every other morning...smiling her way through, but...I notice something missing...something wasnt right wasnt it...
Just like most guys, everyone could talk to her, friendly and nice, and I asked her after school where everyone was busy packing up..."is something wrong?"
She replied, no nothing is wrong, it is today I realise that, those words was the only lie she ever told anyone...
What was the lie? What happen next? Why if you'd ask me now, do I believe in GOD, I would reply "God doesnt exist for he is not cruel..."
Days past without fail, just like the sun would rise everyday, she would shine like the morning light to us
It was after my extra curriculum activties one day at school, I'd realise that I was running alittle too late and the bus had already gone without me, I chuckled at my own clumsiness, and decided, ahhhh lets just walk home, its only a few blocks away
Lazy and tired, but having the wheather nice and cool in the evening sun, I took my stroll, passing by a park along the way
Life seemed perfect, no homework, it was the weekend the next day, and what luck, as I was going through the park, I saw her! sitting on the benches, drawing something
I was surprised, and came up to her, we greeted each other and I asked, what are you doing here? she smiled gently and replied...
"Drawing My Memories..."
My mind froze for a second, and all that could come out of my mouth was "eh?"
then she said something which burnt itself into my very soul till today...something haunting yet cherished...
"I guess its something speacial, out of all the days where I decided to cherish every moment, you found me here on the first day sketching my memories, and whats more speacial to me is out of soo many friends, you are the only one who asked me, am I alright..."
I didnt really know what it all meant, but today...those words hurt deeper than anything in the world
She contienued to say something, which was the beginning of my world breaking apart...
Her:"I owe you an apology"
Me:"eh?"
Her:"I lied to you..."
Me:"huh? what about?"
Her:"I'm not alright..."
Me:"oh? whats wrong?"
Her:"I'm alittle sick...."
Little thoughts of a flu or a fever came into my mind, and I thought it was nothing, then I asked if it was a fever or cough or anything of the sort, she just smiled gently...and I felt...fear...a cold chill from my spine racing to my heart...
Then she leaned next to me and whispered
"Can I tell you my secret...?"
She leaned forward on the bench, towards the side of me, I blushed, I never had someone I loved soo much be soo close to me before
A moment of happiness in my life came to and end when she whispered her secret to my ears...
"You'd know, everything I once taken from granted, the simplest things like talking and laughing with friends, calling someone over the phone, writing down words, can be taken away in such a cruel way
...(Tears start dropping down from her eyes to her cheeks, and I freeze...)
I'd realise that I've become alone, soo very much alone in the world now, and even though I promised myself to be strong, you wont hate me if I become weak for just a moment with you, would you?
...(she moved forward just as she said those words to me and she huged my arm, I was still frozen...)
my illness is cruel, soo very cruel...why did it choose me..."
The next 15 minutes she explained her disease to me, and it was cruel, soo very cruel... The disease causes the person to lose control over their body, but because the person can retain all mental ability so the disease acts as a prison, it is called Spinocerebellar ataxia...imagine losing the ability to run first, then to walk, then to write, and then to eat, and then even to speak...but you still can think like yourself...you just have no control over your body...
It is a disease that robs you of your life, all except your mind and your heart...
She hugged me tight after explaining it all and she dried her tears on my selve, I watched the sunset that day, just like my world losing its light, I would soon realise how deep this would echo through my life till today...
I went home after she dried her tears, and as I walked home, I felt a heavy weight on my heart, she had told me to keep this all a secret and that she would handle everything else in between
I couldnt sleep that night, endless thoughts raced through my head, a sense of worry, a feeling of sadness...it plagued me sooo much
The next day, I received a phonecall, it was from her! I was happy but confused...
*click*
Her: "hello?"
Me: "??? omg? _______? how did you get my number?"
Her: "hehe, I called a few of our classmates, some of them know you~"
Me: "o-oh...oh...ok..."
Her: "surprised?"
Me: "yeah, quite"
Her: "then you'll be more surprised when I ask you, do you have time for a date with me?"
Me: "eh?"
Her: "of course if you're not fre..."
Me: "of course Im free!!! when? where?"
Her: "how about now? we can meet at the park?"
Me: "park? you mean yesterday's park?"
Her: "yeah"
Me: "oh, oh ok!"
Her: "great, I'll see you there in 30 minutes ok?"
Me: "sure 30 minutes"
*click*
I was confused but quite happy, I didnt think, I bath and changed and rushed over there, thinking to myself what and why she would call me...
When I arrived, it was about 30 minutes later, and a few seconds after I had arrived she came walking down a path leading to where we met yesterday...I never seen her in outdoor clothes before, and she stunned me, no she dazzled me...she was sooo beautiful, she wore a white dress with just alittle frills...amazing...I lose words to describe her all the time...
She smiled sweetly at me and asked me if I waited for her, of course I replied no...and she skipped alittle bit beside me and said "where should we go?"
The simplest things that day became the most amazing moments in my life, we went to a nearby mall and had lunch, as each moment ticked by, I could feel my heartbeat matching time itself, we window-shopped for awhile, and I never had soo much fun, talking and laughing with anyone while walking around a mall window-shopping...come to think of it, I never window-shopped before haha...
We played some games at the arcade in the mall, she beat me at some games - like shooting games...ahhhh I obviously let her win...right? hahahaha...no accuatly she is pretty darn good at games like those...hahaha...I know I know...
we left the mall and walked around the streets, laughing most of the time, and making the sillest jokes about everything...
It was evening before I realised it, and we found ourselves sipping drinks at the park again, where we met...
Her: "I had such a great time!"
Me: "yeah me too, hahaha which makes me wonder why you dont have a boyfriend yet *chuckles*"
Her: "accuatly, this was my first date"
Me: "eh?"
Her: "*smiling sweetly* surprised again?"
Me: "eh?"
Her: "*chuckles* hehehe you're cute when you're blur"
Me: "eh.......uh...ok? hahaha"
Her: "hehehe but yes, its my first date, and I never thought a date would be sooo much fun~"
Me: "oh...*blush*"
Her: "thank you..."
Me: "you're welcomed? *blushing*"
Her: "I know you have alot of questions..."
Me: "n-n-nah..."
Her: "I'm going to tell our classmates that I am swtiching over to home-tutoring"
Me: "oh...they are surely going to visit~"
Her: "its fine, after awhile I'll just say I'm busy~"
Me: "oh ok..."
Her: "you must be wondering also why I called you out..."
Me: "hahaha kinda..."
Her: "mmmmmm I have a crush on you"
Me: "*starts choking on my drink* COUGH COUGH, EH!?"
Her: "*smiles gently* alot of surprises today isnt it?"
Me: "*shocked* eh!?"
Her: "hehe~ well I think I'll be abit naughty today and let you think about that *wink*"
Me: ".....eh!?"
She came beside me, and whispered
Her: "for whats its worth, I'm sorry for being selfish, but I hope you wont hate me..."
I turned and looked at her blankly and I have no clue to what she said...
Time became a cruel thing to me, days past by soo quickly, and everyday, it seemed that I wanted to hold back its hands with all my heart. Within a few weeks, she had announced her withdrawal from our school, and yes, we all had a big farewell party, we all drank, we all cheered, we all laughed our hearts out, however to me, it always seemed hollow...
To be contienued~ |
Submission Name: A Story
