here is my religion -------------------------------------------
and now on this anniversary of all of this destruction
i want to smite you completely.
nothing in me wants to keep you any other way
than to hurt you with my deserving need.
I don't really like myself anymore
since I've succumbed to your devious nature.
however i cannot forget myself in all of this
I still care about you
enough to hurt you.
You're a joke
you made a show of me.
I used to talk nothing of you except...
how great you were.
Since you've shown yourself
I cannot express it simply.
I've been growing up since I met you
figuring out everyone's needs.
I know this hurts....It was meant to.
Here are your remains you left with me.
They sent shock waves everywhere.
No one wants to be here anymore
not even the girls
that seemed so important.
The ones that you emptied yourself into while being alone.
They've gone on while I've been here sweeping up their remains.
You used to invest a lot of yourself in people
your fake self.
The one you created one night while you were mad at the world.
I could of help you out of this
but you instead chose to indulge in something
that wasn't helpful.
I still don't think you know what love is.
What it is to give up everything you believe in or want for one person.
I know and its not self-gratifying.
Its cold and lonely.
You cannot count on anyone else but the one you stood up for.
You've betrayed everyone else
for one person.
And that person can't help you up.
You still can't guess what I'm writing about you.
I don't think you'd known all the chaos you were getting into.
I'm gonna leave any minute
you'll never know i was here.
:-O wow ... I love it!!! When you write I can feel your angist I can feel the rage from within. Weather these are writings fictional or non I am unaware of but you have me fooled. However if i could suggest one thing it would be to not make it so long... how you'd go about this I have the slightest clue I wouldn't want to see anything taken away from this post... maybe just a suggest for future posts :-)